so i was going to post to my journal earlier, but lj has been down for a few days to the best of my knowledge. the main point i'm trying to make is that i tried... i tried to blog for you guys. i've been reading, doing homework and working a little on cosplay for the past two days since i have sunday and monday off. i have discovered that frog tape doesn't stick to rubber latex, and neither does any other tape. so i was a little fucked on the lilith wings. i'll have to paint them by hand which is a huge pain in the ass. esp since i already bought the blue spray paint. i'm hoping i can find the receipt and return it. can't use spray paint if i can't tape off the parts i don't want blue. shit sucks. so all i ended up doing was priming with white so i can paint it later. maybe i'll try and pick up the right paint on wednesday. i was going to do it today, but i got busy with studying and watching star trek.
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this weekend the main thing i had to prep for was an in class essay on sirius. this sci-fi book i had to read for engl lit. basically we were given the perimeters. 2 hrs, 500-700 words, develop a thesis around either of the topics given. the topic i chose was basically that sirius wasn't a sci-fi novel. that it was just a relationship novel glossed over with the barest hint of sci-fi. the thesis i created addressed the fact that most of the themes in the book are portrayed through the character's personal relationships and not through scientific discovery. but all this is boring to people who have never read this book XP my main issue was trying to fit 3 pages of notes on essay structure, book quotations, my thesis, and outlining the 3 arguments, into a 3"x5" index card. lame i know, but luckily i write small. i even included the MLA citation just in case, since i never know with this prof. next semester, or whenever it's available i'm kinda convinced i want to take the children's lit course. i think it'd be fun.
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on friday, momo and i just sat and wanted a bunch of movies most of the night. 'the swell season','my week with marilyn', and 'the descendants.' they were all pretty good. then later i watched 'the man-ster'. i like it when we just sit and watch movies rather than watching tv. for 1, i don't really like tv and tend not to watch it unless it's criminal minds, grimm or project runway. usually i read instead, or i wander off. and 2, because watching movies with my mom is easier than with my dad. i like movies, but dad's super picky and will usually pick the most retarded movies ever. i think his last enlightening tale was 'machete.' kind of brings a tear to my eye. of sorrow, not of pride.
the next night i also watched 'waiting' and 'percy jackson and the olympians; the lightning theif.' i've seen both, but i like percy jackson and waiting i haven't seen since it came out. plus the news that nathan fillion's going to be in the next percy jackson makes me extremely happy. i do love me some nathan fillion. watching that movie always makes me want to start on the books though, even though they're for kids :P
watched the lorax tonight. though missed the first 15-20 mins because i was seated in the wrong theater :C was sad about that, but i still liked it. i like the bears
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sooo, it's something i've addressed in the past, but i still don't get it. people are always shocked when they find out i read. and by read, i mean a lot. i usually finish around one or two books a week depending on their length and how much hw i have from classes. or i tend to be a bit slower when i don't really find the book that interesting. but anyway, for books that i read freely, i read many. and generally from several different genres, though sci-fi is by far my favorite. i read classics to trash, it doesn't really matter to me as long as i like it. but people are still seemingly shocked when they find out i've read something. really? like really really? i've been this way since prolly before highschool. i read a shit ton, and i do so very quickly. i finished the millenium series in less than two weeks. shock and awe people, is all i can say.
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i want to murder the lilith costume, it's causing me so much stress. if worse comes to worse, maybe she-ra will be done by then. if the wig arrives in time. so i can wear that to sakura. though that'll make it two years in a row i wore a western styled cosplay instead of anime or videogames.... all well.
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updated the groove list. currently i'm not sure which book to dl. 'the hunger games' or 'brave new world.' i'll end up reading both, so i suppose it doesn't matter. i finished 'fair game' and it was awesome. just makes me crave more. new nalini singh comes out may 29th. can't wait!

Chu,
Britt

soooo today was my first wednesday off. it's part of my new schedule that i get wednesday, sunday and monday off now. i don't mind too much. so my plan was that i would sleep, do the reading for feminism class, tweek my annotated bibliography (put it in alphabetical order etc.), then finish off sirius since i'm already supposed to be on lady in the lake for lit class. i wrote the test for sirius and got like 18/20, lol but i still haven't finished the book. bad me XD

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so anyway, i discover that my dad actually has weds off too. this ends up being horrible. people who know me, know i have a really hard time sleeping. it's why i'm up most of the night even though i have work in the morn. so anyway, first he wakes me up to go pick pkgs up from the post office before i 'go to work.' i inform him i don't work that day.... no big deal. thanks for looking out for me daddo, you know in case the alarm didn't go off or something. this is at like 8 in the morn. i go back to bed. and hr later he starts calling out for me. he wants me to do the dusting right then so he can wash the floors later. something he doesn't end up doing anyway. now this is when i get a little ticked. i can't sleep during my work days because i'm at work during the morning, going to class at night. up most of the late night because of insomnia... shit sucks balls. i use my days off to kind of catch up. esp recently because i've been so stressed. so i get a little pissed about this whole dusting at 9 in the morn thing. i get up, i do it, i go back to bed. HE WAKES ME UP AGAIN! starts yelling out from down the hall, when am i going to the post office. he wants me to pick up food. i ignore him at first, and try to go back to sleep. but he keeps fucking around and yelling about mcdonald's, finally he goes in my room and is talking about fucking shit all, i yell at him to fuck off! that i'm tired and to get the hell out. he gets pissy, asking where all this is coming from, and i'm basically like 'you've been waking me up all fucking morning. leave me alone. are you bored or something?' i was really pissed off, and he does it all the time. when me and him are home, and my mom's not there, he will do this constantly. i seriously think he just gets bored.

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my mom kind of understands since she had problems sleeping too. that when i have a day off, and if i actually am sleeping, to leave me the hell alone so i can get some rest and not be a bitch for the rest of the week. but my dad just fucks around and thinks that if he's up, everyone should be up. it's fucking retarded. he goes to bed at 10pm, and is snoring in seconds. i wish i could do that :C then he gets all pissy and pretends he doesn't understand when people get pissed at him. and by people, i mean momo and myself. it's like, he's lived with this for years, he can see that i'm exhausted, he just chooses to fucking ignore it. and then wonders why i'm such a bitch if he tries to wake me up. this is why my cat is my favorite member of my family.

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so i had WSGR tonight. i just drove straight there rather than skytraining it since my class is at 7 and you don't have to pay for parking after 6. handed in my annotated bibliography. i think i did well, i was just kind of confused how i should word the thesis question. so i kind of flip flopped on that. but i'm glad it's over with. returned all my research books. got the guidelines for the next major assignment for that class. i haven't even read it. i don't know when it's due... yeah. i am so on the ball, but i just don't give two shits right now.

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getting very stressed with the amount of work i have left to do before sakuracon. also stressed about other things, but i'm not going to talk about them since i don't know if it's actually something to stress over, or just me being paranoid. last creative writing class, she actually told us that our assignment 4's, for me the euphoria story, is actually going to be given to a local author for review. i'm a little bummed i didn't know that before hand, since i like the ghost story so much better. euphoria is just like an acid trip. whatevs.

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fair game, the new alpha and omega novel by patricia briggs came out on the 6th. i'm very tempted to start reading it, i have it dl'd on my kindle, but i know once i start, i won't stop till i'm done. and i have so much shit to read for english lit :P laaaame. i want to read fun stories. it's like have a craving for cake when you're diabetic.

Chu,
Britt

This is kind of a rewrite of an old story i had to write in grade 11. Write a story where you were the hero. Though admittedly i changed most of it, about the only thing that remains the same is the setting and charlie. also the idea of this quest to get to the city. in the original story there were a lot more characters. the main character, i changed her name to kara rather than using my own like i had to before. her friend vanessa, the mother, charlie and another being in the dream world. he was a dog made of shadows named zacariah i think, but i don't remember his name too well. it might have been noah. i had to cut out a lot of the quest parts because admittedly i don't remember them much, and originally the story was like 15 pages long, and i had to finish this one up in 10 for my creative writing class.

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i don't like this as much as the ghost story. maybe because it's old hat for me, or because i just don't enjoy the setting as much. i like the flow of it, and the oddity of it. perhaps that's why i chose to rewrite it. i thought it was a tale that could do with a second look, and would easily translate into something shorter. plus i got the idea in my head of rewriting this story, and it just wouldn't go away...

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( Euphoria )
not much else to say about it i guess. decided to post it up here just for shits and giggles. figured i had posted my last one, this might as well go up too. hope you enjoyed the read. i'm kind of nervous to read this out to the class. it's such a strange story, and the presence of a giant talking rabbit make me a little scared. hopefully it all goes well.

Chu,
Britt

sooo tired, should be sleeping. boo sleep. anyway... been working on finishing up cosplay for sakuracon. crossing my fingers my legging and boots arrive in time. probably going fabric shopping with lisa on sunday. i need to pick up (hopefully) a red stretch jersey for my lilith bodysuit. so far, i've cut the corset out of the madam red gown, and i'm going to be refashioning it for the lilith costume to save time and money. i don't want to make a new one when i have one that's pretty much all ready to go...
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LIST OF SHIT I NEED TO DO:
-refit corset, removing 1" from either side so that it won't be too big anymore
-replace zipper with a lace up back
-paint wings
-get gloves
-paint leggings (once they arrive)
-cut and fit the rest of the body suit before attaching it to the corset.
-buy fabric!
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seems long... but then i remind myself i've had longer. gave the 'ghost' story to my mom to read after i came back from class. the first night she didn't say anything really, so i kind of figured she didn't really like it . i wasn't really surprise, scifi isn't her bag. but the next night, she says she has something to say... and then proceeds to start crying and confessing about how amazed she is. how she's so proud of me... keep in mind my mom hasn't read anything i've written, prolly since elementary school. she says she was just blown away. so of course i start crying like a baby too, and i'm kind of speechless. what do you say to something like that? my mom really isn't one to gush over her kids. like she knows we don't walk on water and shiz. my mom also had a tendency to only tell other people she's proud of me, or something i've done. i rarely hear about it, except from a secondary source. so this came as quite the shock. a nice one though.
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i just didn't know what i was supposed to say :S updated the groove list. love you all monkeys. maybe i'll film some of my fabric adventures. either way i'll try and have another CB up this weekend... though i seem to be saying that every weekend. lol ♥

Chu,
Britt

wow i haven't written in here in a long time! anyway. so recently i've been playing around with the idea of making a writing journal. but until i decide on that i decided to post some stuff here for people to read. this was a short story i had to write for one of my classes.

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( Ghost )
this is the shorter version I had to edit down due to a restriction on the number of pages. But it didn't suffer the loss of too much detail from the one i originally had. if anyone wants to read the longer version, i do still have that one as well. i like the end product, but this was kind of hell to get out. i stayed up till four last night, then skipped work today to edit it down and get some fucking sleep :P
i woke up late and realized i wouldn't have time to go get even the unedited version printed off and copied before work, and then after between work and class without sacrificing being late to a lecture.
shit sucks, but ke sera. hope you all enjoyed the read!

Chu,
Britt

it's been a while since i wrote in here. i'm not sure why i'm doing it now. just a means of documenting my thoughts and feelings, and getting them out there i think. a lot has happened in my life. my birthday has come and gone, and all i feel from it's passing is just this great sense of failure. which isn't too different from what i usually feel. i think every person goes through a time in their life when they realize their parents aren't immortal. that they won't be around forever and that you can't depend on them anymore despite the fact you want them to always be there for you. for me this realization came about as subtley as a bat to the head. i'm 25 now and i have nothing to show for my life except a string of failed relationships and a great amount of confusion over what my life is, and what it should be.

i have been selfish for a very long time, and i've slowly been transitioning out of that, but it's not without it's hiccups. basically in my time apart from this journal i have gotten a full time job, while i still work the part time at austin's. i was exhausted at first, and i suppose i still am. i have also applied for school. i met with an academic advisor, though it did little to help me. she confused me and i just wanted the entire affair over with. though she did help me fill out my application for douglas college which is helpful. this immense fear i have of returning to school, and placing my self in a situation where there is a possibility of failure scares the living shit out of me. i decided to persue getting my bachelors so i may become a highschool english teacher. where i will take this i don't know, but i need a career path, and working at wendy's just isn't an option. i staye dup all night, and then woke early this morning for panic attacks. i also have the flu which doesn't help. i called in sick to both jobs and instead took a day, which i probably should have awhile ago because my cough is disgusting. but that's besides the point. i've been freaking out recently. i'm terrified and nervous and life is just shit right now to deal with. on the other hand. i have money again because all i do now is work. i'm paying off my debts and things on that end are a little less stressful.

worry keeps me up at night, and that's a hard thing to avoid. my parents are close to retirement. i need to figure out what i want out of my life, and what i can contribute to it to make it better. and i need to do so very quickly. updated the groove list.

Chu,
Brit

great big magical day today... i'm back from virginia, but i'm too tired to recount my adventures in the states. for now i'm just going to talk about what happened today. john came over for dinner yesterday, and apparently while i was away, he bought me a sewing machine at a garage sale or something. it was very sweet of him, though every time he buys me gifts i wish to punch him in the face. gifts make me feel awkward. punching eases this.

so anyway, today i took it to liv's so she could take a look and maybe we could work on the meiko costume i need for cos&effect this august. turns out a piece of the bobbin thinger was broken. like the hook that pulls the thread through, so the machine is kind of useless. in my funk i decided we should rush down to value village before it closes, maybe look for another machine. this is of course after we surfed craigslist and came up empty handed. everything was either sketchy or over priced. so we go down and take a look at what they had to offer. there were 3 machines, one that looked like it needed to be set in a table, another brother one that looked like a $12 whore (used and abused), and an old kenmore. the kenmore was heavy as fuck and seemed to have all it's working parts, even after we found an outlet and made sure all the electrical was good and functional. plus it was only $20 so i bought it, despite the fact it's old school and mostly metal instead of plastic like the new fangled machines of today. so it weights a shit ton. when we got it back to her appy, livvy was nerding out over it as super shocked. the thing runs perfectly, needed no servicing, oil or cleaning, and all the stitch variations, tension, winders and everything else works awesome. it was obviously very well taken care of. my theory is it was some old lady's, and when she died it was donated. livvy apparently loves these old machines because they're hard as hell to bust. which is awesome, considering i'm klutzy as fuck. so i hemmed my meiko skirt and finished off the necklace on my new machine. it's lovely, and i can already picture us spending late nights finishing last minute costumes together ♥

i named her tulip. tulip the ultra-stich 12. now all that's left on that costume is to pray the wig arrives in time and finish the top... also i need to buy a black bra :P
updated the groove list

Chu,
Brit

i think i'm slowly becoming part machine. I finished a 415 page book in less than two days. that's pretty ridiculous as far as i'm concerned. but i knew my reading rate was high when i finished the girl with the dragon tattoo in about 4 days, and while only reading it at work. as it is today... my book, the latest in the psy-changling series by nalini singh arrived yesterday after i got off work. i drove down and picked it up, the proceeded to read. i finished it today. now i am sad. it was a really good book. god i love that series, and this one involved one of my more favorite characters from it. Hawke ♥

really ths is just a check in to let people know i'm not dead. just burned out from all the work i've been doing. but my bank account appreciates it. i constantly worry about how long it'll last, since it just seems that there doesn't seem to be enough business for them to afford me. it's wierd, but i'll milk it while it lasts i guess. maybe they're selling drugs, and that's how they make their real profit! one can dream... on a plus side it's enabled me to be able to go and visit my sister for the first time in like 3 years or more. this makes me happy, and i'm much looking forward to my little 2 week vacation to hicksville virginia, where the best wife is your cousin. XD

leaving at the end of the month. updated the groove list.

Chu,
Brit

so i'm back from sakuracon. sorry i've been back awhile. i was going to post day to day con reports, but the internet at the hotel bit ass. seriously i couldn't access facebook or livejournal. like wth? i dunno, maybe it had to do with the fact we were on like the top floor. i guess routers don't reach that high lol. in truth i should be sleeping, so i'm going to try and make this short.

sc was a blast. had major fun with all my people. despite david's crazy blow up at the gas station lineup. the hotel was beautiful, even if i did have shitty internet. my feet were destroyed by my shoes, had a super cool gl photoshoot with molly. i hope to see the pics soon-ish. jaimmie's friend clint also took some badass shots, even if i was probably a nightmare to work with. i always am when it comes to new people.

i'm not going to lie, i spent most of my cash on food. i did meet exist trace, their concert was awesome. had to wait forever in the line-up for their autograph. their organization this year for the meet and greet was horrid. but i rode it out, and jyou and omi called me sexy, which was one of my highlights. i'm not going to lie, i've kind developed like the world's biggest lesbian crush on omi.
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soubi wig got here. it's awesome. soubi glasses also got here. i was pissed. first off the lenses inside were made of plastic, so they were super hard to just smash out. the lenses were yellow so i had to get rid of them. the frames weren't gold, they had been painted like schoolbus yellow with what seemed to be spraypaint. the fit was off, like they didn't sit right. not a huge deal, i mean you sometimes have to bend glasses. when i was in process of bending i realized the problem. the arms of the glasses had been put on at two different heights. on one side the arm was near the top of the frame for the round lenses, and on the other is was at the bottom. this is something i can't fix, no matter what they're going to look lopsided because they are! so i left horrible feedback, and they messaged me saying how i should have contacted them blah blah. they would have sent me a new pair etc. i said how i didn't want a new pair. that these were shit, and even looking past the manufacturing malfunction with the arms. what i received was not what i thought i ordered. so i told them the only way i would revise the feedback is with a full refund. so maybe i'll get my money back. i've already ordered a different pair of glasses from another seller. so keep your fingers crossed!

more on sc adventures when i'm less sleepy. updated the groove list, and changed my theme back. love you all.

Chu,
Britt